I’m trying not to cry, although my troubles bring tears to my eyes, silent screams is just my way of not to break down &cry. I could cry for alittle to get it all out but everytime i start there’s more then tears coming out. So me holding it in is for the best unsure if for the rest but still my way of self respect. So don’t tell me cry to “get it out.” Cus when I’m alone blades begin to slice out the remains the tears are unable to “get it out” so be with me to “get it out” of don’t be the reason to “get it out” I’m tried of the “get it out” so I hold it in to keep from the “get it out” saving the tears &blood for when I tell you to get out…